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[05 May 2006|01:11pm] |
I am going to see SnakesonaPlane if it kills me.
♥
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[03 May 2006|08:16am] |
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p.s.-those of you who commented on apologies_denied... uhhh you should probably add me as a friend, then I'll add you back. XP
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[02 May 2006|09:05pm] |
New journal. But I'm still using this one.
Other one is a more serious journal.
Only add it if you can really deal with it,
and aren't going to bitch and moan about
everything written there.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) apologiesdenied
fill out the thing,
I won't feel bad if you don't add it.
In fact, that would probably be the best thing to do...
I'll update it soon. Not tonight.
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[30 Apr 2006|10:10pm] |
This tuesday is gonna be hell.
PMS+hide grief=one depressed nayface
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[30 Apr 2006|01:13pm] |
I made a collage today on a piece of wood I found in my basement. I'm proud of it. It's absolutely sick.
Tomorrow I probably won't be able to look at it...
I'll try not to burn it like I do with most of my art.
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[29 Apr 2006|08:09pm] |
Greg's sister gave me a "Juicy Couture" shirt. I think I'll wear it just for the scathing looks I'll get from my friends! Ha, I kick down boundries and stilleto-pierce the motherfuckers.
Today was amusing. Tomorrow I will sleep.
I ate.
I lived.
I made Anna's day.
P.S.-I ♥ Dancing!
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[29 Apr 2006|10:26am] |
The Best of Monty Python Marathon today with Greg.
Yesterday was fun. We stole rocks for my mom's garden and built little fences with them. Ahhhh I'm tired.
Last night I didn't get such good sleep... that's been happening recently...
I talked with Anna for two hours yesterday! (even though I had someone over for an hour and a half of the convo) It was awesome because Anna is a nifty kid.
I finally got But I'm a Cheerleader and The Sweetest Thing DVDs thursday so Kara you must come over and watch movies with meh. ♥
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[28 Apr 2006|09:28am] |
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I miss my life.
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[27 Apr 2006|01:04pm] |
Ok, time for a real entry. Take the children inside and cover your parent's ears:
I feel like... less of a person. I don't know if I'll ever be able to be "happy" I don't know if I can do it on my own... It feels like I've had this weight on my chest t all my life and I just don't know how to move it the fuck off. Betweenn the 60 of prozac, and the 75 of welbutrin to get me through the day, as well as the 150 of seroquel to help me with the nights, I feel like I'm never going to get to this normal. I'm on all this stuff to help me but it doesn't seem to be helping. It's better than when I wasn't on medication but I still have drastic lows. I'm scaring myself increasingly the more I think about it all. I just want to feel content.
Other than, well, everything... things are going as well as can be expected. I'm glad I'm going to the prom with greg, and I've been writing a LOT of letters to Anna. It gives me something to do. Oh yeah, and my finger is in massive pain.
All in all... I just want to sink into the earth and disappear.
as usual
♥
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[27 Apr 2006|09:38am] |
When things finally start to happen
you begin to realize
how little you've amounted to
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[25 Apr 2006|05:32pm] |
I think it'd be a good idea for me to disappear from the internet.
I don't fit in where attention whores get the highest rankings and you're expected to do the same thing every day... if I wanted that I'd go into the corporate world.
Ta
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[19 Apr 2006|06:09pm] |
I almost forgot...
Now I just feel numb
I am a failure
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[17 Apr 2006|09:25pm] |
my mom reads my e-mail
my mom spies on me
I'm confused
I want... many things
my mom hates me
I still want to die
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[16 Apr 2006|01:57pm] |
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Happy easter bitches!
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[15 Apr 2006|12:34pm] |
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( truth )
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[12 Apr 2006|08:47pm] |
So.... I'm going to the Prom with Greg.
We're not going out or anything, and he knows that but I wanted to go to your prom and he asked me and he'd be fun to go with. We're gonna go in a group... you better all be there, so much dancing can happen.
p.s.-I can't wait to see people tomorrow
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[11 Apr 2006|04:41pm] |
Thursday-Branford. Afterschool. Be there. ♥
p.s.-I miss my life
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[06 Apr 2006|01:34pm] |
Ugh I sound so emo.
If you don't want to read my shit anymore or like to make fun of it I promise I won't be mad if you just take me off your friend's list.
Misty-I miss my partner in crime
An-See if you can make sunday, I'm going crazy here.
Everyone Else-♥
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[06 Apr 2006|01:32pm] |
Sick. Close to another breakdown. Drifting away from most of my friends. Out of touch with reality. Lonely. Complicated. Confused. Distant. Emotionally unstable.
Yeah, my life totally rocks.
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